it might just all be a facade

Wednesday, September 12, 2007;

♥ 9/12/2007 06:00:00 AM

I know that smth has changed
Never felt this way>>

No one would ever know how im feeling inside right now. Absolutely no one. ): I feel so freaking stressed up, and freakin screwed up. My results are bad, and i need to really really work hard in order to be promoted to J2. ): Sure, ive friends around me, some fared better, some fared worse. But im feeling really horrible inside right now.
Okay, i took about 7mins to type a whole chunk of words, and i deleted everything. Too personal i guess. =l
It's really hard finding a true soul to open up to. Either you lost your soulmate tom whom you can really pour everything out to, or your best friend isnt by your side. Or simply, everyone around you seems to cropped up with their own matters and you feel that they just wont understand you. To me, its just that i find it a chore tryin to spot true people, friends whom arent acting and fake. So, the best way is simply, to bottle everything inside of you.
And if you really need to destress or vent it all out before you go bonkers, get a blade.

Photo/story time! (:

I dont know where were we, but ya. The clique girls! :D
At night, we were all our way out for dinner! (:
Some city area i think, this time round, its near the sea! Us again.
Camwhoring on the bus.
Oh, my new baby. (: Samsung mp3. Sexy huh. <3> I uploaded all the nice songs, and even uploaded photos into it. For the trip, i went to get this charger, to charge this mp3 without using the com. Once i reach china, guess what i realised? I forgot to bring the damn cable. I was seriously so upset. ):
Us on a boat to some island. Okay, at this island. It's just like an imitation of jurong birdpark. No joking! Including the birds' show and stunts. :D There's this parrot called Binbin! And oh ya, they're seriously out to get our money man. One of the bird's stunt was to 'steal' our money! We were supposed to hold up money and they'll actually fly to your hand and take the money. Smart jon took out the hotel card, none of the bird were interested. LOL.
Three of us. (:
Me in front of some old medicine shop.
See, Pam and Binbin are forever acting cute. Tsk.
Pammy pammy pammy. =p
Ah da bin! Advertise for 'wahaha'. Oh yar, 'Wahaha' sounds familiar huh? It's a name of a brand for drinks in china. I drank those in yunnan back last yr too! :D
The boatride. I got a little tan after sitting in the sun. Oh yay!

Our room doors! (: Sometimes, i get confused as t, which is my hotel room. Hahaha, the six of them should know what this means!
Calister's bathing.
At the 'book city'. Aaron and i went mad at the 'acrade'. :D We spent quite alot there too. Haha. This scene was really hiliarious. He put the tokens into the slots, and the kids started snatcing the basketballs. LOL. But say, doesn't this look like a dad and his children? (: how sweet.
Okay, we took train back to some place to take plane back to singapore. :D And again, the train's condition is seriously much better than what i thought it would be. Haha, pardon pam. But this is the girls' cabin. :D Quite nice and romantic right, with the fake rose. (:
Me! We took up the whole carriage 11. :D
Ah da bin bin.
Me!
Haha. Ive tons of retarded photos of jon. But to protect his privacy, i shall only update one. Haha, jon's seriously one funny guy. I rmbr that time, all of us were in his room. I accidentally dropped his blanklet on the floor, and he started talkin in this slang. It was really hiliarious. Ask aaron, we both laughed til our stomaches hurt like mad. Haha! Kinda miss his nonsense though. LOL.
Airport! Okay, another story. (: First, when we alight fro the train, poor binbin left her drawing for her mum on the train. ): We waited really long before moving off from the station. And the station were really horrendous! Everyone's shoving their way thru the station and eewk. All of us were kinda pissed off. I just rolled my luggage over this person's feet. Like hello, stop blocking the narrow passageway. ): Boo. And once we get our butts out of the station, we dragged and pulled and tugged our heavy gangatic and huge luggages to the bus. Wa, it is horrible! We went up the stairs, down the stairs, up the slope, down the slope, etc. Pfft. Okay, one good thing. The bus's airconditioner were superb! :D But there were alot of mosquitoes in the bus. Jiaying Weixiang and Aaron were busy killing them. Haha. We reached the airport, and we took those trolleys to put our luggages. Jon and i were acting retarded, and we sat on our luggages. Aaron were pushing the trolley i was on, while Cal was pushing the trolley jon was on. Haha. Yes yes, just like uncivilised barbarians. But heck, it was really fun! And the second ride, Aaron braked the trolley suddenly, and i flew out literally, and landed on my butt okayy. ): OUCH. Pfft.
Blahblahblah, after the flight, we were back to this homeland! :D We were smiling so happily cos we forgot about the stress and music that we'll face. We only could rmbr the fact that singapore's cool. :D

There're other photos i wanted to post up, but aiyah. No time no time. So many things, too little time. ): Mm, for now. I wanna study, wel, i dont exactly have a choice btw. I have to! ): Goodness gracious me.

'ive already said i need another runaway;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.